Dear Idiot,Hi. How are you?I hope you're fantastic.I hope everything in your life is perfect.Why??Because the higher you are, the harder you fall.And baby, I can't wait to see you crash and burn.I made you my everything.I neglected people I cared about,People that actually gave a damn about me,because of you.I was NOTHING to you.You kept me around just to screw with me,...
Okay, I overreacted.Not everyone leaves.A lot of people leave,But then people you consider "better" come in and take their place.That is, until they fuck up, and you're crying your eyes out wondering if "better" was ever really better at all.Rinse and repeat.It sucks, but it's life, and life really is all we have.So it doesn't make sense to mope about everything,or to get...
I don't trust.Everyone leaves.End of story. ...
So honestly, right now, at this moment,I'm waiting for the shit to hit the fan.You're going to get hurt.Like major hurt.And like always I'm going to be there to pick up the pieces.I'm not complaining, though.It's always nice to be needed,loved.God I hate this.I wish you could see that she's playing you like a Vegas dealer.But you can't,you won't ever admit it.You'll get...
My mind has a cramp.I can't think right.Whenever I go to say something, I fail.Everyday,I become more and more like the person I told myself I wouldn't be.I'm becoming a shallow, shameless, teenage girl.I feel myself judging people very quickly.That's not me.I don't know where this heinous bitch came from, but she needs to go the hell away.This isn't me.I may be apathetic...
I don't have amazing things to say.My words won't make you praise me.My thoughts lack even more.I have trouble constructing thoughts well enough to be able to say them aloud.I'm not a genius,nor a philosopher,nor a person with any clue whatsoever.I don't have any life experience, and I'm quite gullible.I get nervous easily.I cry a lot.I have problems, just like the next person.Some...
You're not the only one hurting.Don't disregard my feelings.On that note,Don't disregard your own feelings either.I know that's what your doing.It's not helping your case. ...
Contrary to popular belief,the big round thing sprouting from my neck,has actual, intellectual thoughts.The red organ pumping behind my chest,has the right to feel real feelings.And babe,do I have some real feelings for you.You don't get it do you?I don't just have a high school crush on you.It won't blow over in a week.I care for you.It's not love.Well, I love you.But I'm...
"The kiss originated when the first male reptile licked the first female reptile, implying in a subtle, complimentary way that she was as succulent as the small reptile he had for dinner the night before."I chuckled when I read this.Just the thought of two reptiles randomly licking each other makes me laugh.Haha :)Lately,I've taken to finding quotes,and saving them in my phone.I currently...
Hi.My name's Alison,and I have trust issues.I don't trust you as far as I can throw you.Maybe I should,but I'm not going to take that risk.You say you trust me...Don't.I'll hurt you,and push you away for no reason,and care about you too much,and get hurt too easily,and feel too much,and fall too hard,and cry too often.And you won't be able to pick up...
Over the last four months,this blog has become my diary.I tell it everything.I only have like 2 people that read this, and that's okay.It keeps me honest.I love this blog.It doesn't judge me when I tell it my inner most thoughts.It doesn't tell me to shut up when I'm getting to caught up in my teenage angst and emotion.I love that.I think I...
It's been over two weeks since I've posted a blog.I love to blog.I've been reading blogs.But I have had absolutely nothing to say.I still have nothing to say.Or...I have nothing of importance to say.Nothing I write in this blog will be notable.Sorry.I'm on the verge of breaking, again.For a year, I held you off.You didn't know anything, I just helped you with your...
Hair dye?Yes.It's sitting right next to me.My hair is still it's putrid color of ickyness.But I have acquired the dye to change that.It's step number one in my master plan to becoming a better me.Well, actually, it's a step towards step number one...You understand.:) ...
Where are you?I know where I am.Jittery, fidgety, anxiously sitting. Here.Thinking about you,The reason I am who I am.Then remembering that I have him,The reason I'm still chasing after the person I can be.And I'm stuck in between.Because I miss you,And I want him.Because I want to cling to what I am,When it's best to grow into the person I have the potential...
Focus, focus, focu.....fkljsgbdflkbvasdklfjb.My mind is an avid protester of all things that could be even remotely productive to my life right now.Bad? Yes, very.Do I care?Nope.Not in the least.I know.That's horrible, awful, dreadful.I can hear my mom now, "Alison! You could get straight A's if you tried!!"I know.I could.Easily.But I'm stuck in this naive teenager mind that can't seem to grasp the concept...
Hey!Do you remember me?Oh... well,My name's Alison.I've got those big bright blue eyes that you used to call beautiful.I've got that sense of humor that always made you laugh.I've got that emotion that used to drive you crazy...What was it, again?Maybe love?Yea, love.*smirks*You still don't remember?You don't remember spending hours on the phone,Talking about nothing,Still somehow saying everything?You have to recall all the...
It's 11:23I'm still awakeAnd I'm thinking about you.You're not what I expected, to say the least.You didn't get mad when I yelled.You just gave me space.I like you.I really like you.And it scares me.As soon as I admit that to myself,I set up 1,002 opportunities for myself to get hurt,553 ways I can lose control,150 reasons to worry everyday,7 more girls to be...
Dear A. P. U. S. H.I hate you.You cram so much useless knowledge in my head.The truth of the matter is,The guys that run our country don't do a whole lot.They tell other people what to do,Then take the shit when those people do it wrong.Hell of job, right?Give me an essay to write about how much America sucks vs. how much it...
Two.Dos.Deux.Second.What do these things have in common?There's always one thing before them.One.Uno.Un.First.Fact of life:First always comes before second.She always comes before me.The worst part?You don't even realize it kills me. ...
Sometimes a good ol' blog/ranting is just what a girl needs to prepare herself to write an amazing history essay.I'm hoping this will do the trick.Because my creative juices are definitely not flowing right now.And I really don't care about John Adams.I suppose I should care about him though,He is one of the founders of this great country.(I use the term "great" loosely.)...
Funny.When I imagined you leaving,I imagined my self kicking and screaming.But now that you're gone, I'm happier then ever.Strange right?Maybe not.You treated me like the dirt beneath your feet.It was only a matter of time I suppose.I couldn't control my emotions,and you couldn't control your actions.All in all,Our friendship amounted to nothing.Thanks for wasting my time.With love,Alison T. Humphreys. ...
I'm falling for you..... Scratch that.I've already fallen for you.The way you;look at me,hug me,tease me,it drives my me wild.We're so close to being exactly where I want us to be.Two steps away from from stumbling into an insane happiness neither of us could have ever dreamed of.Two steps from undoing the past year that we've spent on people who only wasted our...
He loves you.More then you could ever understand.I see it in his eyes.I hear it when he talks about you.I feel it when he hugs me.He would rather be with you.If you knew that,If you understood that you're the only reason he smiles,then I'd be content with letting him be with you.If you knew that he wants you ten times more then he...
Change is good.Seasons change, trends change.People don't change.You've always been who you were meant to be.Situations change, the people around you differ.You've always been who you are.At least, that's what I think.Things are changing like crazy.But I'm still me.And I'm still here.And I always will be.Dueces ♥ ...
Replacements.I'm always replaced with them.I hate it.Was I ever worth anything to you?Every time you said I was amazing, nice, the only person who you could ever talk to...Was that all just a lie?Because obviously I'm not irreplaceable.You've proved that to me a thousand times.And I know others will prove it to me a thousand more. ...
Awesome, amazing, fantastic, super, sick, fricken sweet.That is how I feel right now.I don't have deep thoughts flowing into my head,but the thoughts I do have make me smile like no one can.For this, I am thankful.Dueces ♥ ...
There's something in the back of my mindSomething I can't shake.Something I've thought for awhile, but haven't said anything about.You're the one person who I can talk to about anything.You're the one person who I have never gotten mad at.You're the one person who I want to get to know more about.There's really something in the back of my mind that whispers in...
When the scars you tolerate give you a sense of pride,When you can't remember the last time you cried,When you can ultimately show the world your fine,You'll know.When you don't fight with your clothes anymore,When you don't spend hours weeping on the floor,When you embrace the clouds and your spirit soars,You'll know.When that fuzzy image finally becomes clear,When you genuinely listen, instead of...
Do you plan out what to write in your blog?I don'tI just type, type, type away...Hoping something mildly wonderful will pop out of the tips of my fingers.Does that ever happen?Have I said things that are mildly wonderful?I hope so. :)I confuse the hell out of myself.Am I happy?Am I sad?Am I pissed off beyond repair?Am I clinically insane?I answered yes to 3/4...
Never do I have a definite answer when someone asks me if I'm okay.Or if someone asks me what's wrong.Or anything like that.You get the picture.I try to answer, but the phrase "I don't know" fumbles out of my mouth thirty times in a row before I actually can think clearly enough to form a response.Cool, right?If I knew what was wrong, I...
I'm not afraid.Bad things happen.People change.But in the end, it's all for my own good.I know I might lose you.I know I might fail AP History.But I'm not afraid.Things happen for a reason.Nothing is just thrown out in the middle of the road for me to sulk over.I could sit and stare at the boulder plundering down from the heavens above thinking about...
I really should be working on my AP U.S. History essay.But alas,I'm here.And I keep thinking.More like wondering...How often do you cry?How often are we, as humans, supposed to cry.Many people just shy away, into the shadows, never showing any emotion at all.How often do they cry?Sometimes, I cry for no reason.I like the way I feel afterwards.The feeling like you're so tired...
Life is unexplainable.It's fragile and ever-changing.It can't be defined by putting words onto a page or in casual conversation.Life can only be defined if you truly live it.Put action together with all the wims and fantasies that go on inside your head and you get life.You get to live.Do what you want when the world tells you no.Do the wrong thing just because...
Ignorant stupidity = high school.Everyday.People are stupid.I'm included in this, too. Don't get me wrong.But honestly, I'm not as stupid as some of the people that go to my school.It's not immaturity because EVERYONE'S immature in high school.I'm used to it.It's just...Ignorant stupidity.The same question being asked over and over.Asking "which one?" when there's another person in the class with the same name....
The weather.I know, that was a sentence fragment, but I don't care.I love the weather right now.It feels like autumn.It feels like the leaves could be bright orange as soon as I wake up in the morning.I'd honestly be okay with that.I'm always happier in the fall.New school year, new beginnings.Friday night football games.The colors make me feel amazing.Plus it's not hot.Big plus!I...
I don't want to grow up.Or...I don't want to grow up yet.I really want to know why people want teenagers to grow up so fast.Are we really that horrible that you have to change us??We have our whole lives ahead of us to be an adult.But you still try to teach us all of life's lessons in a four year period of time.I...
Do you ever wish you were seven years old again?Things are simple when you're seven.You have almost zero responsiblillities and your parents still treat you like you're the only thing in the world that matters to them.When you're seven, your world is still small.Most everything you see is new, fascinating, wonderful.Everyday you learn something.You're innocent.You're still cute.And you don't see the bad things...
Summer, summer, summer.I don't know how I feel about it ending.I'm excited for many things the new year has in store, but I'm also scared that I'm not going to do well in my classes.I just don't know.But I'll get through it like I always do. :)I hope.It's funny, most people are worried about whether or not their going to fit in or...
I believe some things have to be believed to be seen.I believe if you act like you're happy long enough, eventually you really will be happy.I believe a person's a person no matter how small.I believe words can hurt worse then sticks and stones.I believe the world sucks, but you have to have the bad to appreciate the good.I believe in God.I believe...
Okay, so.I need to stop procrastinating.It's the only way I'm going to survive my sophomore year, considering I over loaded my schedule with difficult classes.I even read a book on ways to stop procrastinating, but I still procrastinate.It's horrible really.Other then that, I'm looking forward to the new school year.I look forward to learning new things and meeting new people.I get happy just...
As I sit here and watch my little cousin play video games, I realize how totally pointless, mindless and unrealistic they are.I hate video games.I really think they're pointless.Seriously, when you can smash a flower pot and get gold coins in return, it's gone too far.Life doesn't work that way.Destruction doesn't equal money.Unless you're like, a professional carpenter, getting paid to tear down...
I'm going against all my morals.Right here, and right now, I am going to write a depressing, complainy, stupid high school type blog.Yeah, I know. I should have the word "hypocrite" stamped on my forehead, but that's all right. :)The point:I hate you.Words, no matter how strong, can express how much hatred I harbor towards you, your actions, and your face.This however, is...
You know, I love to watch the rain.It's so predictable, and unpredicatable at the same time.Everyone knows that when a raindrop starts to fall, it'll eventually hit the ground.But you can't predict which way the wind is going to blow that raindrop before it finally comes tumbling down to the ground, becoming part of a glorious puddle. :)That's a lot like life.We're all...
I wish I had something profound to say. Something that would make the world go, "Wow, this chick knows what's up!"Actually, I wish I had something moderately interesting to say that would make a couple people go, "Haha, yeah!"But alas, this hasn't really been going well for me lately. I'm not a quiet person, but I feel like I've been abnormally quiet.Maybe I...
You know, I wanna tell the world our story.The story of me and this kid.Maybe it's a normal story.Average. Mundane. Boring.Girl meets boy. Boy meets girl.Girl falls for boy. Boy doesn't fall back.Classic.But maybe this isn't a normal story.Because in a normal story, the girl eitherA) Gets over itB) Finds someone else to fall in love withorC) DiesNice right?In my story, the answer...
Dear Mr. Blog,I've missed you.I haven't been able to blog in five days!!What a tragedy that my three readers have had nothing from me to read in those long, treturous, five days!!Bahaha, sike!I went on vacation, forty five minutes away from where I normally live, to a place that I go to at least once a summer.It's a beautiful place, full of trees,...
I'm going on vacation!!! :D I'm going on vacation!!! :D ...
I have a love-hate relationship with people.I enjoy socializing with them, having discussions with them, and laughing with them.However, the stupidity of the human population has increased ten-fold since I have entered high school. Or maybe I've just become more aware of it? Who knows...At any rate, it annoys me.But even more then it annoys me, it humors me.I think it would make...
Arguing puts a damper on my day.However, I will argue with you about nothing in particular until the ocean evaporates, causing disaters of epic proportions.Hell, I'd probably argue with you about the likelihood of that actually happening within the next hundred million years, just because I can.Truth is, I don't have all the answers. In fact, I have damn near zero answers. Cool...
A lot of the time, it's for ranting about how your life sucks.I don't like that.My life doesn't suck, but I still want to blog.Is it possible to rant about how amazing your life is?Or would that just make other people feel bad because their life "sucks".I'm pretty sure that most people who have an online blogs' lives don't suck.They do have internet...
I won't lie to you. I do have those occasional meltdowns of epic proportions because I can't stand what I see in the mirror that day, but those normally only last about five minutes.I may punch a pillow once or twice, but when it's over, and I regain composure, I can still walk outside with a huge smile on my face, not caring...
