I don't know how to fix this.I can't figure out how to be good enough for you.I really don't even know what the problem is...You care about me, I know you do.Why am I not good enough?I don't want to talk about sex, drugs, or drinking 24-7, I don't always say the right things,I'm not a size 2,And I'd rather sit in my...
I'm sorry that I have feelings for you.I'm sorry that I care so much.I'm sorry that I cry myself to sleep sometimes because I know you don't care as much as I do.I'm sorry that I'm jealous.I'm sorry that I haven't done anything to ameliorate the situation.I'm sorry I don't have the courage to tell you how I feel.I'm sorry I'm not completely...
It's been a year since everything went downhill.365 days.I still think about it everyday.I wonder what would've been different if I hadn't kissed you that day.I can't help but think that we'd still have some sort of relationship had that night not turned out the way it did.So maybe it's a blessing that it happened the way it did...I mean, it's not like...
I'm happy.For maybe the first time in my life I can tell you that I know exactly who I am. It's a great feeling. :) ...
I wish I could be better.I want to have the right words to say when you come to me heartbroken.But I don't.I know I've been distant. I know I haven't been the best friend I used to be.It's hard.I don't know why it is, but it's hard.I hate not having you in my life everyday, and I often wish thing would go back...
I don't think like everyone else.I don't think doing drugs, having sex, and getting high is cool.Does that make me boring?Am I safe?Uhh... yep.But that's who I am.And I'm okay with that. ...
In the words of one of my favorite country music artists Blake Shelton,"Who are you when I'm not looking?"Is it possible to know a person so well,but not really know them at all.That's how I feel when I'm around you.You say really strange things to me.Things that make me wonder who hurt you.Who warped your mind to make you think you're so bad?I...
The truth?You want the honest-to-god truth?I'm scared.I'm petrified at the thought of losing you.What the hell?I thought I was doing a good job of not getting attached.Seriously, W.T.F?I love you.I just don't know what to do. ...
When I think about having a conversation with you, I almost hyperventilate.But honestly, a hug from you right now would feel like heaven.I don't know where to start.I think I messed up,But I'm not entirely sure.It's been almost a month.Did I hurt you?Did I have enough power to hurt you so badly that you could just forget me?I'm sorry, okay?I didn't know that.I...
I want you to look at me.Really, look at me.I know you see me, brown hair, bright blue eyes, a smile plastered on my face,But do you see me?I've shown you who I am.You know better than most.You've seen me at my weakest.You've helped me more then you could ever understand.Is it this easy for you to let me go? ...
There's something about you.Something that always makes me want to come closer.I could be holding you close enough to feel your breath on my face,But that still wouldn't be close enough.I want to know what you're feeling right now.I want to know if what I said today is killing you as bad as it's killing me.I just want to know.What I said was...
Sometimes I wish I had the balls to say what I say in my blog in real life.But I don't.So I'll settle for uselessly ranting through pixels on a computer screen.I bet he doesn't know how much today meant to me.I would tell him that the half hour I spent alone with him today riding all around town in his spiffy little car...
I want to have a violent temper tantrum at your feet because that is honestly the only way I think I could get your attention.YOU'RE KILLING ME!!!!I want to be closer to you.I want to be able to stay up all night just laying on your couch hugging you.I've compressed my feelings to accommodate you,But does that matter to you?Do I fucking matter...
I miss the way things used to be.I hate the way things ended.I wish we didn't have to change.But in the end,I know it was for the best.Because now I'm in a good spot,and I'm a good person.Yeah, I've made mistakes.But they've made me into the person I am.And I would never give that up. ...
Please, PLEASE tell me what's going on.I'm begging,I'm pleading,I'm performing every act the synonyms of the above words portray.I have no fucking clue where you stand.I'm confused, and I think you owe me more then you tend to give me.I bend over backwards to make you feel loved.I avoid my own feelings in attempts to spare yours.You choose her over me, and frankly,...
The last thing on earth I want to be is an inconvenice.I don't want to get in the way of who you are,or who you're becoming,But I do want to be a part of it.You drive me to the brink of insanity,And just when I feel like jumping out of the car,You take a sharp U-turn and I end up back in the...
I hope you know you broke me.I thought I was broken before...Now,Now I just feel useless.Your girlfriend wasn't good enough for you then?You had to come begging from me.That's pathetic...You're pathetic.A few nice texts won't get you into my pants.I have more dignity than that... maybe you should too. ...
I saw you today.I saw you laughing, flirting and being happy.I saw you give her that sweet hug you give when you're nothing but smiles.I saw her steal your hat,And then I saw myself,Back when we were happy.It's hard knowing that I'm nothing you ever wanted,but it's even harder knowing that I made that realization a long time ago.I'm not daft.I knew we...
I want to post something.Some of my thoughts,feelings,etc.But I can't seem to put my words on the screen.I want to tell you of all the wonderful things I've been doing/thinking/feelingI just want to put it out there.What's stopping me?It's me,mememeAlways me.That's not a good thing, but I don't think it's a bad thing either.I've fallen into this pattern of daydreaming,And as amazing and...
I've got a problem with the world sees meBecause the world doesn't see me.My family thinks I'm a genius.My friends think I'm happy go lucky. Always smiling. Always spontaneous.My parents think I'm innocent.And my mind tells me I'm none of that.I honestly have no idea who I am.I don't know what I want, I don't know what I like, and I definitely have...
I spin a flag.It's my passion.And today is the premier show for the 2010-2011 show.I'm pumped!I'm really nervous too,but I'm way more excited.:DThere's no greater feeling then being on that floor in front of everyone that shares the same passion as you,throwing up a five-pound metal stick,catching it perfectly,then hearing everyone applaud.Oh jeez,it's amazing.And I can't wait for this season to officially start.Yeah...:D...
I've said it before, and I'll say it again,people don't change.You can change your words, you can change your actionsBut at the end of the day, you're the same person you were when you woke up,no matter how differently you went about your day.Now there's a new question.Why would people change their actions?Why would someone want to be something they're not?The answers to...
I'm not upset,or frustrated,or confused.I'm actually pretty happy with the way things are going,but I haven't blogged in awhile,so I thought I should.First of all,My friends couldn't be any better.We haven't fought about anything in about two years,and our level of drama has been kept to a minimum for months.So yeah, it's basically perfect.And really, when things get hard, those friendships are what...
