Which is often.

I don't understand.

I just don't.

Why am I always last?

Why can't I mean anything to you??

Do you even see what you do to me?!?

I've told you a thousand times:

I'm jealous.

I'm scared.

I don't want to lose you.

I just want to be a part of your life.

I care about you.

And you lie.

You always lie.

You say you care about me, too.

That you want me and need me in your life.

But you just hurt me.

And I keep going back.

Because I don't want to face the reality that, if I run away, you won't even think about running after me.