Even in the midst of all the chaos inside my head,

Even though this year is turning out to be nothing like I planned,

Even when I feel like I'm breaking,

Life continues around me.

I can curse the world around me all I want, but the fact of the matter is, I can't stop what's going to happen.

Life keeps bringing me new people.

I've met someone who truly thinks that he's a bad person, when I see nothing but good.

I've gotten more acquainted with a person who has a smile that lights up a room. 

I've realized what it's like to have a genuine connection to another human being.

And all of this happened at a point in my life when I felt like everything was crumbling to bits right in front of my goddamn face. 

It doesn't really make sense, does it?

I feel like I can connect with others 1000x better than I can connect with myself.

I can see people,

Really see them.

The way they are. The way they relate to others.

And I always fall in love with them.

Just a little bit.